Broken

We don't always understand why God let's things happen. People always say that the obstacles God puts in our lives makes us stronger, which is encouraging but what if you're one of those people who keeps getting knocked down by these obstacles. What if you're a person who feels like you finally get a breath of air and then you're pulled back down in the undertow and cannot breath?

Sometimes I feel like I finally get up on my feet and then I'm continuously knocked back down. I know that God is right there beside me helping me back to my feet, but why can't he hold me up so I don't fall? Why can't he heal my pain? I do not always understand his ways and why he does things in certain ways.

I know though that he has a plan for me and that all things will work out in the end. I know that he is a loving and caring God, I just need to remind myself of this when the world is a confusing place and feels as if it is falling apart.

An encouraging aspect that I often reflect on is that someday I will be in a place where I will not experience any pain or suffering. A perfect place where I can fully worship my Lord and Savior and remain safe in his arms.

Tania's Prayer by Stephanie Seefeldt:

"I haven't got the strength today,
to reach out and take your hand.
But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt,
that you are holding me in your embrace,
tenaciously and desperately and tenderly you're singing to my soul.

Trust me child.
You will not be forsaken.
Trust me child though your world be torn and shaken.
Know me child,
in my obedient holy son.
And when you do not know the way God leads,
you will know your God.

Like the prodigal returning to the father he once known.
Like the widow offering to him the best of all she owned.
Like the prisoner who is clinging to the hope he cannot see.
And like the woman scorned by all and shamed only wanting to be free.

Trust me child.
You will not be forsaken.
Trust me child though your world be torn and shaken.
Know me child,
in my obedient holy son.
And when you do not know the way God leads you will know your God.
And when you do not know the way God leads you will know your God."