Mother's Day for the Ones Who Long

As the date of Mother's Day began quickly approaching my heart began to ache more and more. The longing and anxiousness of the unknown timeline of being chosen by a birth mom and of when would we actually bring our baby home, ebbs and flows, like the tide of the ocean. The emotions swell and crash down upon me and suddenly the dreaded day is here...

What would I say if someone asked if I was a mother? 

---I have four beautiful babies in heaven but according to earthly standards I may not be a mother to you. 

---My husband and I are expecting a baby but once again not in the "conventional" way, we are adopting and are waiting for the call to bring home our beautiful child any day. 

I was in fact asked this question and I told the truth, that I am a mother. My husband and I are expecting a baby through adoption and I have four beautiful babies in heaven. 

This day is difficult for so many that are longing and aching to have a child. Our Father is a creator and His desire is for us to create. I do not understand why some have been given the gift and others haven't but He has reminded me of a woman who also struggled with fertility and pleaded with the Lord to provide her with a son. Her name was Hannah. Her story is in 1 Samuel 1-2:11. The Lord had closed her womb but she remained faithful in prayer and was obedient and the Lord blessed her greatly. Her story gives me hope and I pray that it gives hope to those of you who struggle with fertility and that you know that He has a plan for your life. One that you cannot even imagine. Maybe the journey He has in store for you holds children from another's womb, one's who are beautiful and need a home. May you embrace this journey whole heartedly and hold on tight! 

So as you long and wait to become a mother this is my prayer for you: 

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 

2 Corinthians 4:16-18