Beautiful Things

My heart has suffered and experienced its share of pain throughout this life. Today I was brought to my knees by the message today and overcome with emotion and tears. I am a person who always tries to hide emotion and keep it all inside but God was not allowing this today. I began to shake and fell to my seat as sobs overtook my body. I was overwhelmed by my suffering but also by the faithfulness and goodness of God my Father.

I ran to the place where I hear God speak to me the most and He was waiting for me. Waiting for me to run into His open, loving arms. He embraced my soul. In His embrace on my special dock, I had a conversation with my Father:

God when I was a little girl, alone and scared crying in my room, "I was good".

In elementary and middle school when I didn't have close friends, "I was good".

Throughout my diagnosis of my illness and the pain and uncertainty that continued and still continues, "I was good".

Holding my Papa's hand as he lies dead on the ground and embracing his shell of a body, "I was good".

"I am good".

As I continued to wait and listen I heard my Father say that He was there through it all, through all the pain and sadness, disappointments and abandonments, through the days when I didn't know that if I would make it, He was there. Then He whispered "I am here..."

My Father is all powerful, faithful and true. He is good through the storms and obstacles. He is provider and giver of every good and perfect thing. He cares about me, little insignificant me. He cares for all people and is always present. He never leaves in times of suffering or in times of rejoicing. He is ever present and always loving.

He makes beautiful things from broken messes.

He has made me beautiful through my suffering.

I am His beloved daughter and you also are His beloved child.

Never forget that. Though you feel all alone and unloved, you are His beloved child. He has a future for you.

Beautiful Things

Gungor

"All this pain

I wonder if I'll ever find my way

I wonder if my life could

All this earth

Could all that is lost ever be found

Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new
You are making me new..."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR7VOKQ0xJY

"Beautiful Things"

http://www.blackhawkchurch.org/sunday/this-weeks-message/

"God is All-Powerful and Good"