Bearable Pain

Today the pain is too much for me to handle. My joints are screaming out for a relief that cannot be found. I'm sick of doctor appointments and medical tests that always leave me feeling disappointed and discouraged. Why did God give me this pain? Why couldn't He have made me "normal"? Why must I struggle so...

At this moment the one thing that I would love to do is go outside and run as far and as fast as I can. I want to feel the world speeding past me and hear my heart pounding. When I am finished my knees will not ache and I will feel energized and refreshed.

Although I cannot experience my dream of running, I can experience the feeling of being refreshed, energized, and renewed. God fills me with these wonderful feelings and even though I struggle He is right there beside me. He understands the pain that I am going through and He will use this pain to teach me something and possibly use my experiences with pain to reach out to others. Even though I am in so much pain the amazing aspect is that I still feel completely filled with the loving spirit of Jesus Christ. He fills my heart with hope and strength to carry on each day. He fills my soul with a joy that only can come from Him. He knows my deepest innermost feelings and is always comforting me. He loves me and makes me strong. I can live each day because He is in my life. I am so thankful for each day that He has allowed me to live and for all of the many wonderful blessings that He has given me. He is an amazing God.

Back at My Heart

Natalie Grant

"Strong on the outside

But coming apart at the seams

That's me.

Tragically always together

But bruised underneath

Well, that's me.

I stand just to stumble

Tripping on my pride

Why do I always try to hide?

Chorus:

Meanwhile, back at my heart

I'm desperate for all that you are

Undo me, take me apart.

Meanwhile, back at my soul

Oh mend me Lord

Please make me whole

You know just where to start

Back at my heart

Back at my heart

Patiently waiting

To pick up the pieces of me

That's You

Healer of hearts

When the world leaves it broken in two

That's You

Maker of heaven, sky and the sea

When You stretched Your arms

You reached for me, You reached for me

Chorus

You know just where to start

Back at my heart, back at my fear

Back at my brokenness Lord meet me here

Though I'm exposed , I'm not afraid anymore.

I'm desperate for all that You are

Undo me and take me apart

And meanwhile back at my soul

Mend me Lord please make me whole

You know just where to start

Back at my heart, back at my heart

Back at my heart, back at my heart

Healer of hearts

When the world leaves it broken in two

Well, that's You"