Today Precious One, if things had gone the way I had planned, today would be your birthday.
Our hearts broke when the doctor said at our eight week appointment, "I can't find the heartbeat, I'm so sorry". The nurse, tried but not so discreetly, took the birthing packet away. We were rushed to the hospital to confirm that your heart had stopped, but on the way out I asked the nurse for this beautiful picture of you.
Sweet one, I think of you often and every time I see a pregnant woman I think about how big you would be. You were cherished and loved from the very day you existed, we could not wait to meet you and we still look forward to the day when we're reunited with you and your other siblings.
Even from this little picture your daddy and I could tell that you were beautiful and a masterpiece. Everything about you is amazing and you didn't want to leave my body. You attached yourself securely which was wonderful. Your poor little heart just wasn't formed quite right but you reside somewhere that is far better than earth. You will never know pain or sorrow. I will never have to wipe your tears away or pray for healing. You will always be perfect. What a wonderful blessing. What better place than to have a home in Heaven?
This verse often came to my mind even after your passing:
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
Psalm 139:16
You are a masterpiece, our precious Little Blueberry. Your life had a wonderful purpose and meant so very much to me. I wish so much that I could hold you and kiss your soft little cheek, but we will have eternity.
Rest in Abba's loving arms dear one and dance through the beautiful flowers.
I love you more than words can express.
