Waiting for something is such a difficult concept. We wait in line or for appointments impatiently and long for it to be "our turn". While waiting we often grow frustrated or upset, why haven't I been helped yet?
My husband and I have been waiting and longing for a child. Some periods are easier than others but God has taught me in this time of waiting to be thankful for all that He has given me and blessed me with. He has grown a great sensitivity in me towards those who also struggle with fertility that I would not have attained if my husband and I had not lost our own precious babies. He has taught me to rely upon Him during the darkest nights and that I can scream out to Him and beat on His chest and ask Him why He has allowed such losses. I have not come to a conclusion about why these things have happened but I do know that He has been faithfully by my side through each and every tragedy.
My husband and I have always had adoption on our hearts and January 1, 2016 we decided to fill out an application. We have been blown away by how quickly the process has been going for us and we are sure that this is the path that He wants us to take. After hours of paperwork and background checks our home study will be complete in a week. Our agency is in great need of couples and our wonderful social worker has contacted us asking for our home study so she can send out our books for a birth mother to choose us. We are thrilled to be parents and are shocked by how quickly things are going.
We know that this journey will not be easy and we may have a long wait ahead of us but we know that we must trust in His plans and rest in His arms.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. ~Isaiah 41:10
So as you wait, know that you are not alone and that He has a plan for you, even though we may not always understand. May you be completely blessed!
