Have Your Way

"Feels like I've been here forever.

Why can't You just intervene.

Do You see that the tears keep falling

and I'm falling apart at the seams.

You never said the road would be easy,

but You said that You would never.

You never promised that this life wasn't hard but You promised You'd take care of me.

I'll stop searching for the answers,

I'll stop praying for an escape.

And I'll trust you God with where I am and believe that You will have Your way.

Just have Your way,

Just have Your way..."

Have Your Way~ Britt Nicole

As I lie in this hospital bed, I am so thankful that His ways are not my own. I'm thankful that He is faithful to the end and promises never to leave or forsake me. He takes broken things and makes them beautiful. This broken and painful world is restored and renewed by our wonderful, faithful Savior. Pain and suffering passes away as restoration and beauty takes its place.

I have such hope and peace as I wait for healing because I know He has a plan for me, plans for me to prosper and grow, He does not wish to harm me. I don't know why He has allowed my body to be taken over by sickness and pain but I know that He loves me. He loves this broken body, full of imperfections and weaknesses. He loves this broken body, that is easily lead astray and longs to take control. He loves this broken body, that is so stubbornly set in its ways that sometimes struggles to seek His face. He sees and knows all of my brokenness and He loves me anyways.

He holds me together and creates beauty out of the ashes. Many people of this world have tried to destroy His beautiful creation through abuse and painful afflictions but He has turned all of this into something more powerful and stronger. He has allowed my faith in Him to grow, therefore allowing His hand gently lead me to greener pastures where there is peace and relief from the suffering. His face shines upon me, like the sun peaks through the clouds, and He lets me know that it's all going to be ok, that He is here.

This passage from Genesis reminds me of things in my life:

'"But Joseph said to them, 'Don't be afraid. Am I in the place of God? You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. So then, don't be afraid. I will provide for you and your children.' And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them."

Genesis 50:19-20

If you have been harmed by people or circumstances of this world, take hope for the Lord our everlasting Father is faithful to the end and will turn our suffering broken bodies into a new, shinning, beautiful creation of His.

Be filled with His never ending peace and unconditional love. Let Him have His way with your life.

One Year Ago Today...

One year ago today my hero passed away.

The clouds quickly rolled in as sadness overtook me.

I held his lifeless hand and laid my head on his silent chest and questioned why he had left me so soon.

The storm grew treacherous as the emotions of my heart overtook me.

I prayed, begged God to take me too.

My Papa had just told me that he would always be here for me but then he was gone.

How could this be, how could this precious man be gone that had meant so much to me?

A large piece of my heart lay on the floor with his lifeless shell and died right there with him.

The thunder rolled as I cried out to my Heavenly Father and questioned why.

But there is always an end to the storms in life, even if it is a brief reprieve.

The sun shines through and it shocks you by its brightness.

The discovery is made that life is still worth living and there is still work to be done.

Storms still come and the winds still blow but you are able to face the rain and look forward to the sun peeking through the clouds once again.

Hope is found.

There is refuge in our Father's arms and comfort is found as He rubs His healing balm over our broken hearts.

My once lifeless heart is revived again.

Piece by piece He put it back together, He remolded and massaged my heart.

Death is not the end,

this life is not all there is.

Something far greater awaits us and we must bring His kingdom here.

We must shine for Him while we can and tell all of His wondrous works before it is too late.

Beauty and peace awaits us as we take steps from this world into eternity.

So live, live for today, for today may be all you have.

Live in the hope and knowledge that you have been redeemed.

Breathe in His love, mercy, hope, and peace,

breathe out His love, mercy, hope, and peace on others.

My heart finds joy once again and longs to shine like the stars in the universe.

If you are overcome by the storms of this life, take hope for He has redeemed the world

and the sun will shine again.

Here

Kari Jobe

Come and rest here

Come and lay your burdens down

Come and rest here

There is refuge for you now

You'll find His peace

And know you're not alone anymore

He is near

You'll find His healing

You're heart isnt shattered anymore

He is here

Breathe in

Breathe out

You will

You will find Him here

I will rest in You

You will find Him

You will find Him here...